I Gave it Away

There are some moments in life where you have to chose between good and evil.
Speaking up or keeping quiet.
Sacrificing for the better or settling for the worse.
These moments can be really hard. And troubling.
I know we have all faced them, whether with people, circumstances or events and we all have chosen one or the other.

As I get older, I realize the importance of people's characteritics and how they play a key role in my life.

And a big one is T R U S T.

If you can't trust someone, there is no solid ground, no foundation to really base the relationship off of. You can pretend it is there, but a day will come when you realize it is hurting both of you.

T R U S T is hard.

How many people with the exception of your family do you trust with your whole heart?
It takes a lot to earn my trust. And when that trust gets broken, it breaks my o'l heart, too.
I believe there are two kinds of people.
People who you have to earn the trust from gradually
and
People who you trust until they give you a reason not too.
I tend to fall into that second catagory.

But isn't it wonderful to know you have some people in your life that you trust completely?
Like your Dad, my kids, your peeps, your sisters and sometimes that special guy in your life?

Then there is L O Y A L T Y.

Being loyal is HUGE to me.
I love knowing that I have sooo many loyal friends and family who have my back always. I admire people who are so loyal to their friends and family, that never a harsh word is spoken. I admire relationships where the loyalty is so strong that you are never alone because you will always have that person. And I am especially lucky, because I have some amazingly loyal friends and family.

So my dear ones, look for these qualities in others and in yourself. And if you find them, consider yourself lucky. They are out there, I know, I've met a few of the good ones in my travels. Even some that were solid gold.

Sometimes even when surrounded by these gems, we are faced with things that seem more than we can handle, but even during those times, when I feel I am facing something all alone, I STILL know who am, I know what I've done, I know my truths, and I know I don't need to PROVE myself to anyone because.... guess what......the Man Upstairs knows ALL of that too.

He, I and the Universe had a mightly long talk recently and I've decided to hand it all off to them, because I know I've done all I can and its time to let it go. What will be, will be....and I am at peace with that cuz it's time for a "cool change"........

M E X I C O

Mr. Moto and I went to the Mayan Riviera, it's just an hour south of Cancun. We stayed at an amazing all inclusive resort in the jungle on the caribbean. I think I laughed more in a week than I have in months. Neither one of us speaks a lick of spanish which only added to the entertainment. It took us 5 days until we finally figured out how to get back to our building the correct way. I cannot tell you how many times we got lost trying to find our way back to our room. This resort had 7 restaurants, 3 swimming pools, including a swim up bar, a private beach, a disco, a sports bar (no motorcross, poor Andy) though he did catch a few minutes of it in spanish at one point....and cool paths in the jungle to explore. This all inclusive trip included airfare, bus from Cancun to resort and back to airport, all meals 24/7, and alcohol. Yes I said alcohol. I have never been anywhere where the alcohol was free. 7 days of Corona's and Margaritas and beaches and hammocks and monkees, oh my.

Mas Mexico

Here is what the paths looked like at the resort. We were in Building 21. Our first day we ended up at a time share. We went because we wanted the 2 free Tickets to Xcaret, a real cool water park next to our resort. We ended up with 2 free tickets, a beach bag, a t-shirt and a bottle of Kahlua (which was confiscated at the Cancun airport). By the time, the time share people got done with us, they had dropped the price significantly and offered us two weeks in Costa Rica to join. They asked Mr. Moto what he thought and he said....."I'd rather go jump in that pool outside".
We used our free tickets to go to the Xcaret park. I have never walked so much in my life. My blisters had blisters. The humidity was insane. My hair became 4 inches shorter and 4 inches wider. I looked like Bozo the Clown. Thank goodness for hair clips. I took a million outfits but lived in flipflops, a bikini, and a sarong.
There was a stow-away. Ever since Troy got his passport, there has been no stopping him.
We loved the Chel-Ha park. Thats where discovered "Hammock Island". As you can see, we spent a lot of time there.

First time we went to an ATM, we asked for $100 and they gave us $100 pesos. We couldn't stop laughing, we had no idea what the heck a hundred pesos was worth. We bought a $9.00 bottle of hair conditioner and got just a little change back. So that's what $100 pesos will buy.

We got to know the staff real well at the resort, one fella in particular named Sergio. One day during one of our many conversations, Sergio says .. "Are you two married"? Nope we replied. More conversation passed. Then Sergio says "Do you two live together". Nope, we replied in unison.

More conversation passed. Then Sergio asked " Are you boyfriend and girlfriend?" And I said "we are just dating" and "this is a 7 day date". There was dead silence.....and then Sergio exclaimed.... "NO WONDER YOU BOTH LOOK SO HAPPY"!! PRICELESS, ABSOLUTELY PRICELESS. Something to be said for the single life!!

Here's Mr. Moto wondering how he can extend this vacation........hmmm.

They found their Star.....

First there were 24 semi-finalists who performed last night at the Clark Center. Approximately 600 guests filled the theatre, and saw some incredible talent. And then there were 10 finalists, and then there were 3. The crowd had found their favorite.

Chelsea performed "Maybe this Time" by Liza Minelli from Caberet. She was on her last verse and my heart was beating out of my chest, her voice was becoming more and more powerful as she worked towards those final HUGE 3 notes.......I overheard my Dad say "I can't even breathe" and then she delivered them. As she hit that last note, the crowd screamed and began applauding madly before she could even finish. You couldn' t even hear her last note completely over the applause. She stood in front of the mike stand and raised her outstretched hands as she belted out those last three notes. She nailed it and she knew it. She was in her element at that moment and had the crowd in the palm of hand. The last 5 words of that song were "maybe this time, I'll win". And then I felt the warm tears roll down my cheeks......that was my baby girl up there, living her dream.

There were five judges, and one that was especially important to Chelsea. He was the casting director of the PCPA (Pacific Conservatory of Performing Arts). He was blown away. He told Chelsea that in his role of a casting director, that on the rare occasion that they discover her type of talent, they base their plays around her kind of talent, not the talent to fit the play and she was one of those rare finds. After those words and several more glowing accolades, I don't think Chelsea heard anything after that. She was on cloud 9. She basically had just had her own private audition with the conservatory she had hoped to apply with next January. It doesn't get any better than that.

Chelsea was awarded 3rd place. First place went to an amazing woman who sang her own material and played the guitar, 2nd went to a young man who played piano and does Irish dancing (like River dance). Chelsea was beaming, and we were all so proud.

What a night, what an incredible night. I am still tingling. As soon as I receive the DVD, I will post Chelsea's performance so you too can have goosebumps...

Oh and P.S. American Idol is taking on line auditions this year and Chel plans to try out....

Hola, I'm baaaaaack!

Complete with a monkey on my back!

Lots to share. Had an incredible time in the Maya Riviera.

Post real soon.

Stand by.

P.S. I love you

I can not tell you how much it warms my heart, the response I have had about this blog and the fact it is now going private. It will take a few days until that happens.

Thank you so much for all your emails, the texts, and the phone calls of concern. Please rest assured that you will all have access and I will continue writing. You have no idea how much it has meant to me.

Time for a group hug.
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Now go out there and be good to one another.

Smooches,

Trace